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First thing first, praise to Allah for your blessings and glory. Even tak berapa nak bagus, tapi , Allah bagi ape yang kita nak ,tapi ape yang kita perlu dan yang terbaik untuk kita.
Syukur aku masih di PST. Pointer naik n better dari UPS. But then, aku still perlu usaha yang lebih. Perlu banggakan kedua ibu bapa aku. Mereka dah banyak berkorban , ape salahnya aku balas walaupun aku tahu aku tak mampu balas semuanya.
I think that's all from me.
Gtg
See ya
Miss A.

Sahabat

I failed!
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Who i love,why i dont wanna love again or even havin' crush on anyone..

Before this,few years ago,i had fell in love with my bestfriend. I loved him more than anyone did.. he always care about me.. he treat me like a queen.. the end of the love is, i argued with my own buddy.. so i decided not to love him again..
Now,and on, i wont fall in love again.. i dont wanna same thing happen to me again..  so thats why when people asked me why i dont have a crush i just quiet and smile.. im afraid to do so..
Im happy without crush..
Mr,shahrul..you are the only one i love. I havent crushed on you, but you did. So i learnt to love you in this three years and i now love you whole heartedly.. i dont want any other..
So,i love you..the one and only shahrul hafiz i had.
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Nothing like us..

Hari ini baru aku sedar bahawa janji itu sebahagian dari katakata.
Ia dapat diubah..boleh juga dilupakan..
Memberi janji,begitu mudah..
Tetapi,menerima janji,sampai mati diingati.
Kadangkala janji juga menjerut hati sendiri.
Demi kebahagiaan orang yang kita cintai.
Aku ingat aku kuat..aku ingat aku tabah.. aku ingat aku boleh redha.. rupanya aku pasrah..aku lemah.. aku bukan superwoman.. aku bukan Asiah..aku bukan Aisyah..Aku bukan Sumaiyyah..
Aku harap aku punya kekuatan mereka..tapi mustahil..
Aku mahu ikhlas..
Aku mahu redha..
Aku mahu kuat..
Aku mahu tabah..
Air mata peneman setia..dikala suka dan duka..
Ya Allah..beri aku kekuatan.. beri aku ketenangan..beri aku peluang untuk membuat keputusan.. janganlaah Engkau pesongkan dan lemahkan hatiku..jangan biar aku dibuai perasaan..
#cahaya penyayang dan taat kepada agama
Izinkan aku mengubat lukamu..
See ya
Miss A

Jiwa kacau

Mood swing!!
badmood!!
When something doesnt turn right,turn left laa..
Easy to say,but hard to make it that way..
We do have heart, but some seems to be heartless..
Im mad.
But i didnt show it because they are my friends.
I have no idea why i cant..i just cant.
They are heartless..
They are cruel..
Just then,they didnt realize that they broke my heart into pieces..
How many pieces??infinity!!
but then,that's life. I must go on..move on.. life is a climb..the view's beautiful..
i need to keep climbing,i need rope..
where can i get that??  I just can asked it from friends..
I need help.. but they dont wanna help..
Selfish??they are..
I hope i'll have a better life after this..
couple, doesnt bother..
Friends,distraction..
Gtg.
see ya.
Miss A.

If i stay

If i stay,would you mind?
i stay to love you..maybe always,maybe forever.
I stay to let my self hurted by you.i have no idea why.. but i'll let you..
I stay to be with you,because i love you more than you could ever imagine..
Even sometimes i think i should let you go slowly and quietly ,but my deepest heart won't let that happened.
Love could be weird. Could be hatred. Could be tears. But no matter how many could it could be, i love you for no reason. I love you when first i met you.. when first i saw you.
You have no idea what it meant to me.. me too.. love comes without been asked.. leave without sign..  it might be hurt,but pain demands to be felt..
So thats it.
Gtg
see you
Miss A

Hard time

Everyone will face their hard time.. even harder.. and not all people will be ready to face it.
And for me,i had faced it.. it is hard for me to survive lately.. it is hard when love comes between bestfriends.. i dont want to have this feeling..but what can i do.. i have no gut to declare it and no gut to meet him.
He always asked me to meet him. To accompany him wherever he go.. how can we be aparted.. Ya Allah,please take this feeling away..i cant stand it anymore..
Im happy if we just be friends. Only friends. It is complicated when it comes to love. I dont want to fall in love when it is not the time. He is not my destiny. Not it lutz mahfuz.. i could feel it.. thats why i dont want to fall in love. Cause i'll bleed when i fall down.
Allahu ya hafizu nafsi warruhi,
bismillahi jibril..
fi yamini bismillahi mikail.
Fi shimali bismillahi israfil..
Fi yamani bismillahi izrail..
Gtg
See ya
Miss A..

Getting back together

We're roo young to love..Bieber said.
We're never and ever getting back together..taylor said.
WHATEver it is. After three Days broke up,we get back together. I love u more and more days by days. Never be less. You meant everything to me. I was too ego to declare my feeling. I was too arrogant to say that i need u.. u were too kind to forgave me. U were humble to say u were wrong and say sorry to me.
I hope thing like this wont happen again
Mohd shahrul hafiz bin abdul aziz..
Saya sayang awak. Nothing gonna change that..
Gtg.
See ya
Miss A

New

Ibu pesan:dont fall in love.study first.
Ayah pesan: study hard. Dont bother other thing.
Syazwan: belajar leklok. Jgn menggatal dulu.
Now i know how much they care of me. They were true. Now i feel much better and lighter. One burden go away. Even when everyday i wait for his text and call. but, i have to stay strong. Thats the only choice i have. Iy doesnt metter. As long as i have my family and feiends that support me, i can move on. Keep moving until the end.
I wont love again. Im afraid to fall again. My mind rejected the same mistake. I hope i'll do well in life. I wanna be what i wanna be. I wanna do what i wanna do.
Anasthesiologist..
I wanna be that..
My father and mother's hope and dream..
I will make it comes true.
Inshaa Allah.
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Jalan

Title entry aku hari ni macam..hurmm..its hard to say.. up to u guys nk judge..
Last nite,im having a fight with my boy..
Shahrul hafiz,im sorry..tp sy dh terlanjur cakap.
So we stop here. No more calls everynite. No more texts. No more jokes. No more three words i loved the most #iloveu# , no more caring questions, no more laughters, no more tears,no more otp late nite,no more i miss u, no more i say call me back, no more stories ,no more sharing problems, no more advices, no more u say "cakaplah", no more "nothing" from me,no more marriage, no more you and the crucial one,no more love in me.
I dont think i have to say sorry. After three years it become like this. Thanks for everything. Maybe this is the way the i asked Allah to show me. Maybe u're not mine. Maybe we're not meant to be together beb. Im happy with u..
Redha?
redha itu ikhlas
Pasrah?
Pasrah itu menyerah.
Dalam cerita kita , saya redha perpisahan kita ini terjadi selepas saya pasrah dalam hubungan kita. Jalan yang saya doa setiap masa, Allah tunjukkan saya jalan tu walaupon selepas tiga tahun.
Sayang?
mungkin ada mungkin tak.
marah?
saya redha.
pengganti?
takdir yang menentukan.
Manusia mampu merancang,Allah menentukan.
*Mohd shahrul hafiz bin abdul rahim, goodbye.*
Allah nak bagi kita yang lagi baik
Awak lukakan hati saya dengan kata".
Saya akhiri dengan perpisahan.
Gtg
see ya
Miss A

Ibu

Aku tak akan wujud tanpa ibu dan ayah.. aku berada dalam kandungan ibu selama 9 bulan. Ibu membawaku tanpa keluh.
Semalam, aku tengok cerita hafalan shalat delisa. Whatta story!! Sedih. Delisa kehilangan ibu dan 3 orang kakak dalam sekelip mata. Dia hidup beraama seorang ayah. Kakinya terpaksa dipotong kerana jangkitan kuman. Tsunami yang melanda kampung nya memberi kesan yang mendalam kepada delisa.
It is not about the whole tragic story, but it delisa itself. She was very strong. Even she's just a young little girl, but then she was strong enough to live her life.
Delisa: ummi,delisa cinta ummi kerana Allah
Ummi : ummi,cinta delisa kerana Allah..
Aku tak pernah cakap macam tu kat ibu aku.. ibu, athifah sayang ibu kerana Allah.. maafkan kesalahan athifah ibu.
Gtg
see ya
Miss A

My own little world

Everyone for sure has a dream to own their own space or world. For now, my world is in kmpk. A small world of mine is here.
I have to take care of it all alone. I have to make it happier than before.
I dont even need a stink friend like them. If they wanna be my buddies, i'l be theirs too.. if not, goodbye biatch..
I dont mind at all. I dont even care about that.  Plus,, i dont wanna know that instead of try to know about it.
So, i made my own world here just with the person that accept me with who i am and what i have..
So gtg.
See ya.
Miss A.

UPS

Start selase aritu, i have to struggle a lot. Omeyygadd!!!! Penat memang penat, tapi terpaksa laa kan. In order to succeed. Esok dah last paper ,biology. Feel released sikit. Tak berat macam harini. Fuh math and physics. Aku tahu aku boleh je buat, tapi virus malas ade je memparasitkan diri mereka dalam diri aku. Fuuhhh.. tak sabar nak habiskan semua ni. Hahahaha. Lately, aku rapat ngan ain .best buddy laa katekan. Roomate aku pun boleh get along dgn die. Die tak macam ain qber. She's much better.
Bae: hey ,dont fry my head
Me : u dont poach my heart
Bae : i wont fry ur head if u dont poached my heart.
Me : okay
A month later..
*Me cry*
Bae : u didnt fry my head
me  : but u poached my heart..
bae: *speechless n guilty*
me  : *cry*
senget,saya sayang awak. No any other..
Mohd shahrul hafiz bin abdul rahim, saya mtk maaf. Saya berubah sebab terpakse. I love u more than u could ever imagine. Bae, i love u so much..
So,gtg.
See ya
Miss A

Bae

He's my bae.. i miss him.. he miss the old me.. i miss u so much syg.. sorry.saya just stress.. i think u should gimme some time.
Love yaa
Miss A

Kmpkians

Lately,aku punye emosi tak stabil. Aku bukan sengaja. Im out of control. Aku rase nak nangis je . Semua tak kena kat mata aku. Everything seems to be wrong. Sorry law sesape yang terkena. Tears make me calm. It is the best cure ..aku dah tak tahu nak share kat sape. No one could listen. No one cares. No one knows.
I dont care too.
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Hati

HUMHHH.. lame sangat tak update blog.. bukan dah ade pengganti tapi terlalu sibuk dengan kehidupan di kmpk nie..
Aku sedih
Bersalah
Terluka
Konfius
Mcm2 perasaan aku ade skrg.
Aku nak setia tapi jarak menyusahkan aku..
Aku nak dia jadi teman hidup aku, tetapi keluarga lebih utama..
Ya Rabb.. bantulah hambaMu ini..
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Why it has to be me??

Bila aku terpaksa berdiam diri,semua pelik. Aku bukan menjauh,tapi,aq perlu ruang..aq perlu bersendirian. Lately,aq kerap menangis. Everything goes wrong..macam org lain jugak,aq punye masalah..aq tak mampu nak luahkan. Aku taknak bebankan fikiran org lain dengan masalah aku.. peeps,i hope u all faham. I hope so. Aq perlukan masa dan ruang..please hormati hak aku. Korang jgn laa kusutkan lagi otak aku dengan pape yg ridiculous.
asyraf,u're so nice.
Aiman, i like u at first,but then,aq dah tak suke tgk perangai sebenar kao.. sorry kalau aku layan kao kasar..
Syazlin,stop gossiping n looking at me and asyraf like that..we're just friend..
Ain and azlin,u both are superb!!
Love u all..
Gtg
See ya..
Miss A

Kisah hidup

Sekejap je..pejam celik pejam celik,dah sebulan kat sini.. nak cakap happy taklaa sangat.. sedih pon tak..biase2 je.. taklaa susah macam orang slalu cakap.. aku selalu cuba untuk menggembirakan hati aku sendiri.. aku taknak sakitkan hati sesiapa mostly my parents. They did a lot.. im no one.. i couldt pay even i work for thousands years.. kawan2 kat sini pon ok laa.. k laa.. banyak assignments..
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Now it seems too far..

For a year maybe or almost a year we' ve known each other.. u were nice but then it was hard to start to love again.. we're too far.. i hope u understand..
Gtg..
See ya
Miss A.

#KMPk

Well now new life to begin in kolej matrikulasi perak.. best kot duk kat sini.. minggu orientasi esok penutup.. kami dak2qber ade 16 org tpi yang lagi sorang jet jet sombong so kami berpesta 15 orang je laa..  first thing yang abg n akak AJKO ajar kitorang is #KMPk n #hambar.. mmg happening laa...  so nak tidor .. recharge energy untuk esok ..oooppsss!! Before that, aku dah jadi rulebreaker daa kot.. aku bangon pagi tadi kul 9 ye n skip morning event.. apekah!? *Nsib skali ngn roomies..
Gtg
See ya
MISS A

Me lavh me..

Ooo yeahh.. im gonna be one of the KMPk student of 14/15...im so excited.. back then i used to give up on me,myself n my life..but, i gotta motivation n strength back mostly from friends n family.. once i said i wanna take diploma,n what can i see was , my dad's happy turned dull.. omeygadd.. did i hurt him that bad?? So , after a very deep thinking n several thoughts, i decided to go to KMPk in science.. i wanna be a doctor.. forever will..how can i live my life with my dad's heart broke into tiny pieces.. dad i love u.. mom,thanks for supporting me..so guys wish me luck...
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Now what?

Shahrul, saya akan ke tempat baru and absolutely with new friends.. i wanna make a new beautiful life without u.. i hurted so much.. i bet u know..takpe,saya takkan merayu.. saya takkan meminta.. just let it be n let it go.. n now i let u go.. saya dah berhenti.. berhenti berharap, berhenti mencuba..u deserve better person.. so do i.. u're not my first but maybe the last.. too much pain .. honestly, u give me strength.. nothing much to say..
Gtg
Loviya
See ya
Miss A

I would like to give the love a fuck with capital F..

"Why love always hurting me.??why couldnt it be nice to me? Omeyygad!! Im fucking broken..!! U left me that easy..? U broke all ur promises...  im missing u !!! I want u to be mine back.. i want to have the past 3 days life back... i want u to call me n asked me all that stupid questions.. i promised i wont be bored.. i promise i wont did the same mistakes again.. i promise that i wont give that "breaking words" to u anymore..im all alone.. i want u to cheer me up.. im too weak to cry.. im too weak to say that im truly madly deeply in love with u.. why dont u understand??? Is it hard or u make it hard?? ", dear u.. u want me to say all these to u?? U want me to beg u?? U want me to be like a crazy girl?? U want me to say those to u in order to get u back?? Mr, if u wanna know, love is about honesty, trust.. it isnt a compromise.. u wanna see how much i love u, u cant just put me on test,just believe n keep believing.. i'll send u my prayer.. just go yo hell boy.. i dont even need u..
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Finally..i got it..

Agak lame menyepi sebab i'm quite busy making the preparation to matriculation in Perak..
Aku dapat tawaran UiTM Kuala Pilah in Microbiology and KM Perak in science.. so after 2nd n 3rd point of view, i chose matrics.. thatz mean i have to struggle a lot.. keep fighting Miss A.. harini aku seharian diluar dengan yana.. kitorg duk siap kan borang segalamacam. Haha.. n now i learnt how to do the thing on my own..
K laa
Gtg
Have some more to do..
See ya
MISS A

PEople

I wanna share about one of my friend, Adlin.. adlin is cute and nice girl..die memahami law pon kekadang emosi tak stabil.haha..LEL.. lately, die poat macam2 benda yg kekadang menjatuhkan maruah die as a girl.. it is abot she n her boyfie,fezal... adlin, deep deep, aku kesian tgk ko.. knp fezal tuu bodoh sgt n knpe kao bdoh sgt.. u deserved better laa.. think ok think.. aku bkn nk menyebok ke ape, tapi jantan je is ape lw dah sampai bg tgn kt kao... ?? Kao boleh pikir kan.. u can but in love matter, u failed to think n act wisely.. aku syg kao lin.kao kwn aku.. kwn mane nk tgk kwn die kne lyn mcm smpah.. fezal tuu pom aku tgk bkn baik sgt.. muke raper je.. aku harap kao dpt org yg terbaik..
K laa
Gtg
see ya
Miss A

Sad.

Everyone has feeling..either sad or happy.. but now i feel sad.. why, cause i'd been hurted..

It isnt fairytale...

Never dream too high..but never stop dreaming.. not everything u want u will get n not anything u dont want u wont get.. 18 years life taught me so many things.. i always heard that, life isnt a fairytale .. at first, i dont believe it, but on the second thought.. i believed.. n life too not full happy..  there must be high n low,sorrow n happiness.. we gone through despair and hope.. through faith and love.. that was the circle of life.. we used to be what others want us to be than be what we wanna be..its normal..n most of us did that.. i hope i will have better ..
Gtg
See ya
Miss A..

LIFE

I just watched Secret Garden.. from that drama i finally relized, life isn't a fairytale and im used to be like a little mermaid. hanging on between two worlds.. life is about choices to be made not force.. and when im given choices, i dont feel like i really did.. this proved that we live based on what others said.. i have to get out from this demand thought..
Gtg
See ya
MISS A

Me n bloggie..we're partner

This blog.. kenapa aku pilih blog daripada pelbagai applications yang lain??sebab kat sini i can make it private.. i can write as long as i want without limits.. i can update it on the phone and i can edit it back without changing the date..

Today

Actually nothing special today, but today i learnt many things.. firstly about mother's love..  we cant eaaily said our mom doesnt love us. If she doesnt love us, she wont carry us in her stomach for nearly ten months.
Next, lOve between siblings.. we always fighting for sure.. but then, we will get closer afain and we always asked for their helps..
Then, friendship.. we need friend ..never say we arent.. we need them mostly everytime..especially in university.. we need their help to finish up our assignments..
This is a simple post but meaningful..
Bear in ur mind..
Gtg..
See ya.
Miss A

Faith

I always teach myself to have faith and be strong. We could plan but then Allah is the best planner afterall.. i just have to keep praying and believe that He will give the best for me.. i am grateful that i have friends like 'em. They were very supportive and loyal.. the be with me through high n low. Guys, let us create our own glory..
#gegurl batch 12,13
I miss u peeps..
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

DIa..

She used to be my best friend since 8 years ago.. she used to be my best partner.. a good listener.. with me through high n low. But then everything changed after she had boyfriend a year ago.. i dont know why, but me n her was separated..  i miss her. The old her. But i was egoistic. I am waiting for her  . Still waiting. Mg.. i dont know what to do..
#Najwa hanim mohd zakahar
#I miss u beb.
#I need
#I want everything back to normal.
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Myself

SOmetimes i was thinking alone aboute ny past, future, my friends and family and not forgetting myself.. it was hard actually when u have to make a decision that would change ur entire life. Sometimes i do feel i don't even have any choice eventhough in reality , i do have the choices to be chosen. for some reasons, i have to let something i really want go.. that was life. We have to be clever in choosing the rite path.
#Learn from Pearl Harbour
Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Biatch!!

Aku post ni bukan pasal aku marah, tapi aku terkilan. Aku terkilan dengan kawan cam kau ***. Sumpah aku cakap. AKu tahu kau ada pakwe dah,, tapi tak perlu sampai lupe kawan. Selama nie aku kapel pon aku tak pernah lupe kau n kengkawan kita yang lan. Tapi kau berubah kau tau tak.. kau selalu sakitkan hati aku, tapi ade ke aku zahirkan. ??  Tak pn kan. U were so damned fucking asshole laa.. memang aku betulbetul terasa nie.. kau memang laa. . Aku memang taklah nak tolobg kau pape lepas nie. Jangan harap. Aku bukan dendam tapi hati terkilan sanggop kau eyy layan kekawan kau macam sampah.. kau tegur kitorang bila kau susah kan. Heyy. Hello.. kau engat kitorang jabatan kebajikan ke. N one more thing.. kau left group kan?? Don't u dream yang aku akan add kau balek. Jangan harap.. aku memang terasa gila nie.. urghh. Kenapa laa aku bleh kenal kau. We're friends for years tapi kau acted macan we just knew each other.. aku tak perlu kawan cam kau. Not anymore..
K laa..
Gtg..
See ya..
Miss A

Jpj test

Alhamdulillah passed lam litar n jalan raye..hhaha. same goes to yana n leha.. happy gilakss.. k laa.. no idea..
Gtg.
see ya
Miss A

Hati..

Ya Allah yang Maha Mengasihi.. aku nemohon dan meminta padaMu agar kuatkan hati ini.. jika benar dia tercipta buatku,, panjangkan jodoh kami, jika tidak, jauhkanlah kami dan jagalah hatiku dan hatinya..aku tidak mahu ada nsan lain selain suamiku ya Allah.. ampunkanlah kesilapanku yang lalu..
He was a man that i loved the most. I adore him.. but then i was afraid. Afraid that i was wrong.. i don'T wanna love a wrong person. I waited for years and keep waiting.. he doesn't know. I don't want him to know. Why??because i am scared to loose him .
Awak, saya ada cinta. Cinta saya tulus. Mohon memahami..
Mohd shahrul hafiz abdul rahim,, saya suka cara awak,tapi saya tak mampu cintakan awak. Maaf.
Gtg.
see ya.
miss A

My thoughts

Aku hanya gadis 18 yg bg certain person not enoygh matured to voice out apa yang aku pikir . Tapi kat bloggie aky nie la satu"nya tempat untuk aku luahkan segalanya.. first pasal malaysia kini. Aku bukan nak burukkan malaysia sendiri,, tapi cuba kita tengok.  Macam mana negara lain nak respect malaysia sedangkan rakyat malaysia sendiri tak hormat sesama sendiri. And contohnya.. perdana menteri dan isterinya. Kenapa kita nak sibuk tentang urusan diorang.. kita jugak yang berdosa. Aku tak kata aku tak buat silap.. tapi a deep thinking,, kita tak tahu hati manusia.. kita kenal n tau name die tapi kita tak tahu cerita hidup dia. siapa lagi nak hormat perdana menteri kita kalau bukan kita sebagai rakyat die. Biarlah dia buat salah,, tuh urusan dia dengan Allah. Kita yang dibawah pimpinannya harus menghormatinya..
Then,,pasal politik.. kenapa kira perlu gaduh.. islam tak suka perkauman. Kita boleh ambik iktibar semasa pembukaan kita Mekah. Rasulullah suruh Bilal bin Rabbah, yang brkulit hitam untuk naik ke atas kaabah dan azan. Betapa Baginda membenci perkauman. Tun Dr. Mahathir,, berusaha menghapuskan dasar Apertied untuk menyatukan semua orang tanpa mengira warna kulit. Tapi kita berpecah kerana politik. Tak salah kita bertanding cara baik tanpa perlu berpaling muka. Siapa yang akan sayangkan saudara seIslam kita kalau bukan diri kita sendiri. Apabila negara Islam berpecah,orang kafir tepuk tangan .. betapa rendahnya maruah kita di mata mereka..
Semua orang mengimpikan kehidupan yang aman dan bahagia,,tapi dapat ke kita kecapi kalau kita masih tak bersatu.. orang Melayu masih rasa leka sedangkan orang Cina just tunggu masa nak ambik alih negara. Jangan butakan mata kita yang celik.
Ok then..
Tired  typing..
Gtg..
See ya..
Miss A.

Friends naa~

Humhh. Sometimes friend could act like a stranger and stranger could act like a friend.. tak semua kawan sanggup dengar semua keluhan dan kongsi kesedihan dengan kita.. kekadang orang lain lebih memahami kita dai kawan kita sendiri.. i'm not pointing it to others only,,myself too...me myself sometimes couldn't be a great friend. But at least i tried to be.. i hate when people say they are friend but behind his or her own friend,,they talked back about him or her..
So that is all.
Gtg.
See yaa.
Miss A

Dear hati

Hati. Sangat lembut. Rapuh. Hanya kelembutan dan ketulusan boleh mengekalkannya. Before .. i used to fall in live with a guy. He was humble aad caring. He do respect all my opinio and right. He never scold be . He also was a very great guy to me. But.. Allah is the best planned afterall. He left me with a broken heart.
Until now.. i cauldn't forget anything about him. He was special as he was my first love . He di was my first love.. but he wasn't my last love.
To my new bubbly boo.. u are not my first love.. but u do the last man i will placed in mt only heart. U repair it even the scar still there.
So that Is all for now .
Gtg.
See ya.
Miss A

Sorry

Sumpah saya cakap, saya tak dapat tahan air mata bila dengar suara awak call saya tadi. Dah lame awak menyepi. Kenapa tak cakap awak kena masuk hutan?? Saya risau. Saya rindu. Sorry saya nangis tadi. Saya terlampau sebak senget. K laa. Dah tak boleh nak typing .
See ya.
Bye
Miss A.

Bila harus jujur

Bila aku tetiba teringat kan dia, aku perlu jujur dengan hati aku. Aku still sayangkan dia . Try to forget your first love. Same as u tried to forget the one that u never met. Is it???? Humhh. Frankly speaking, aku sayang dia, tapi aku terpaksa tipu dia . Aku terpaksa cakap aku dah ada pengganti. Aku terpaksa tipu dia dan hati aku. Semuanya sebab aku takut terluka lagi. Semuanya sebab ego yang ada dalam diri aku. Aku putuskan tuk mendua sebab aku tahu dia akab bahagia dengan orang lain. Bukan aku. Aku tak mampu.
#tears come again
Nyte peeps.
Gtg.
See ya.
Bye.

Confident level rises.

I can't beleieve it!!!!! Aku daa berjaya naik bukit uhh. Haha. It seemed tough but not really. Hahaks. Me tiday with yana. N yaa of course, those peeps from paka n durian mentangau. Haha. Today, i pakai baju same ngan hazem n if sesape yang yak kenal absolutely will say, kitorang couple. Watta elf!! Haha. Kami pakai baju team Siput. Haha. Kelakar jugak. Nak jer snapping ngan die tapi well, public. Tak awesome laa bila orang tengok. Maluii!!!
Then , back to my nervous system. Adrenaline daa maximum level. Above sea level dah nie. Hahahahaha. Berdebar sangat". Haihh. Tak tahu dah nak macam mana nie. Serba tak kena jer.
My King Senget a.k.a mohd shahrul hafiz bin abdul rahim . I miss him a lot. Dah berapa hari dah tak contact. It's about a week. Hari tu dia ada call tapi aku dah tidow. Senget, i wish u knew that i miss u a lot. Or maybe dia kerja kot. I love u so so much. Macam nak nangis jer. Last dia call dia cakap dia demam teruk. Phone pon tak tahu pergi mana. I sedih sangat . Aku betul" rindukan dia. Betul cakap bijak pandai, kita akan tahu kita betul" sayangkan seseorang tu bila dia dah pergi. I nak jer cakap i love u too senget . since we met on february 2012 , i dah suka cara u. U were awesome with your own way. Mintak maaf sebab saya tak cuba spend masa ngan awak. Tiap kali awak call, mesti saya sibuk buat benda lain. Kalau malam nyer, saya mesti dah tidur sedangkan saya tahu awak nak call. I miss u sayang. I do really miss n love u but i don't know why it is so hard for me to say it. Pray for my result ye senget.
That's all.
Gtg.
See ya.
Miss A.
#senget,sayatungguawak. :,,(

The true friends

Betul kata bijak pandai, pengalaman mematangkan kita. And as for me, i learnt about true friend in Qber. We perfect each other. Yang genius tolong yang kurang pandai.  Kekadang aku rindu moments bersama. Dah 5 tahun bersama. So many things to remember. Haha. Hope distance won't break this special bond .
That's all.
Gtg.
See ya.
Miss A.

Second day

Haha. Today's achievements. Succeed parking and 3 angle. Haaaa. Amcam? Ok tak? Esok rest. Selasa climbing up the hill. Dramatic sentence kan. Takde makne nyer. Nothing special tapi kan i'm shocked as i see syafiq elias at wimozad. Dah pandai dye rambut sekarang. The ex chubby boy laa katekan or bahase kampungnye, budak baru nak up gitu. Bukan aku jeles,tapi no need to show off macam artis gitu. Sikit pon tak de mase nak jeles ngan budak gitu.
Humm. Deep inside my heart, i want something that no one knows what it is. Humhh. I want to do double degree in orthopaedician and bussiness or  Tesl. But, did my dad allow me to? That were all my passions. I love science and i also love my english. I love bussiness as that was in my blood. I'm in trouble and confusion.
Ohmygadd.
What a mess. I wish i didn't have to think all these. I wish there's someone that will motivate me.
So that's all.
Gtg.
See ya.
Miss A.

Pengorbanan

Pengorbanan kali ni bukan dalam skop percintaan mahupun persahabatan. Tapi pengorbanan kali ni adalah dalam keluarga. My mom and dad ask me to become a doctor. I love science. I love medics. But not doctor. Before,yes i do love doctor. But ,nowadays, it seems so hard to become a doctor because out therw, there's a large number of doctors. How can i succeed? Dad, u never ask me what i want in life, but what u know is, what u want me to be. Sad? Absolutely!! But then, what can i do. As a child, i have to obey them. Keberkatan ibu bapa adalah utama. Aku korbankan impian aku untuk mereka. It would be fine then. I'll try my best to make them happy although they didn't realise it. I'm happy as long as they were happy. So that's it.
Gtg.
See ya.
Love ya.
Miss A.

Merapu day.

Hahaks. Memang merapu. What i am going to say is, i'm tired. Tadi pergi driving school a.k.a Wimozad. Haaaammm. . Penat drive dengan anak cikgu aku. Ntah pape. Rimas aku. Terlanggar benteng baru senyap. Tau pun takot. An hour with hardship. Hahahaaha. Tak hard mane pon. Tomorrow kena pergi jugak. Naseb ah kan. Then tadi mase nak balik, jumpe Bihah and Leha. Ooopppss!! Lupe. Hazem skali. Haha. Leha cun ah naik motor . Bihah cantik cam selalu. Sembang panjang jugak laa tadi. Then terjumpa jugak my schoolmates dulu" kala, syikin,wan and yana. Dorang still macam dulu. And last but not least, my senior, kak tehah rani. Budak Taylor uhh. Hebat kan. Borak" ngan die kejap. Then, ade something funny happened. Haha. Mase aku duk tunggu turn, ade sorang mamat specky duk bangku sebelah. Then aku terpandang die. Die senyum dulu. Then lame die pandang aku pulak. Aku pon cepat" tengok die balik. Die lambai then cakap,belajar kereta jugak ke? Aku dengan tak tau pape angguk je laa. Die pon lambai n senyum again. Haha. Aku tak kenal pon die. Tapi maybe die over friendly kot.aku seram jugak time tuh. Then aku lari pergi duduk kat lain. Macam" laa manusia nie. Haha. Yang aku takleyh blah nyer, ade ke patot die tanye aku belajar kete ke. Nak je aku cakap eah tak,belajar masak. Dak sah" aku duk tunggu turn. Haishhh. Ade jer. Dah takde soalan lain ke ape laa die nie. Ok, sampai sini dulu.
Byebye.
Takecare.
Gtg.
See ya.
Miss A.

homecoming me!!~

what can I say...humh.. no more feeling sad mode after this. but then,I do feel sad. see! I merapu again. entah ape yang aku rase skrg. sedih??? mmg ar.no more talkies finite. see ya...

gtg..
see ya..
loviya..
miss A..
daaaaaa...