fairy tale. it is all the great stories we heard when we was a kid. and it always has a happy ending. the princess willl meet the prince charming and fell in love and met some hardships then survive the challenges and live happily ever after.

but we never knows. in reality maybe, the princess doesn't want a romantic prince charming. maybe she just need a shoemaker that makes her life happy. and it is not the prince's fault too. and it can be that the shoemaker doesn't love the princess in return. but that's how life is working. we just dream of it, but the reality might be different.

and, about the mole. we don't know when it appears. it can be everywhere*on our skin*. it comes without we even realize. people said that , if two people met and have the same spot of the mole, they are destined to be. but then, it is impossible. so why don't we just take the pen, and make a mole on the same spot and write our miracles together. even the thing is impossible, we can make it possible. take the risk and face the challenges. 

and some ppl asked me today whether i already moved on with my ex... and the answer , even seven years had passed, still no. cause i still cry when i met him. without apparent reason. and i still cry when i talk about him. the day he left me, he left me with nothing but scars and broken heart.

remember that life never be hard onto us, it just us who afraid to face the reality.


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Miss A

It is sad . Lol. Crying without reason. Actually i do but then, its weird cause i keep on crying because of it. I got angry easily too. Deymm. What should i do.

I guess i need to do something . Something that will cheer me up.but what? I've told shaf already  . About what i feel. Somehow im feeling a little bit relieved. But then, still i couldnt sleep. Tired . Damn tired. Wake up athifah . "He's gonna get married. Just moved on and live your life. " ."love someone else ".  Thats what ppl always said to me. But then, its not that easy. I suffer a lot. I cried everytime i told ppl about him. I think of him all the time. I let ppl around me go. I pushed shahrul away. Im sorry . But i dont know what else to do. I wished Allah will protect my heart. He , once put a love in my heart. But , He took it back . Because he is not a right person. I knew He did that because He want to give me lesson. And it hurts. I still cant move on. I hope , one day, i wont feel this anymore  and my heart will be open for someone else. And as for now, i will keep on praying that He will guide me and keep my heart.

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Miss A

harini takde laa belajar macam semalam sebab takde mood. uhuks. memang mood belajar ke laut laa. haishh. nasib lagi dua hari nak final. kalau esok dah gelabah dah aku. feeling and emotions. both cant be control. haiilaa. menangis je. pastu nyanyi je. pastu gelak bile scroll twitter. nak menaip pon malas. lulss. k laa. esok laa update pulak.

and to that someone, thanks sebab tanye and care. esok saya belanja kat limbong.uhuks. 

gtg

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Miss A

Hmmm. I was dreaming about you last night. Huhh. I dreamt about you're calling me but i didnt pick it up. Its not tgat im hating you,but im scared. I dont know what to say. And today, you calked me and i was shaking holding my phone in my hand . Looking at your number on the screen frightened me out. im sorry shahrul. Even when you told me, when you failed to hold yourself from calling or texting me, you will contact me again, i still am afraid. What should i do?

Hhhmmm.
mencari jawapan yang aku tidak pastu kebenarannya.
Terperangkap aku di dalam permainan kau.
Aku bertahan kerana kau.
Kau yang dulu sering menolakku ke hadapan.
Namun, cinta dan sayang bukan paksaan.
Aku juga punya hati namun bukan untuk menyintai mu.
Maaf andai aku begitu mementingkan diri, namun hanya ini yang aku mampu lakukan.
Kerana aku belum kuat untuk berhadapan dengan mu.

Shahrul,stop doing this and that cause im soooo fucking tired. Pls stop. i just cant pretend anymore.

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Miss A

IT'S FOUR EIGHTEEN, and still, im awake baru je lepas tengok cerita Melor VS Rajawali. best . cerita pasal zaman sekolah. deymm. terus teringat sekolah. the gangs and wardens. the juniors and seniors. the moment when i feel like i ruled the school. banyak benda berlaku kat aku. well, yeah. aku budak nakal. masa form two i've been send to a camp.camp  budak nakal. lol. lawak kan. i gotta a so called gang named Under 15. why? because we got 15 members. so funny. hahaha. rindu time gaduh-gaduh, zaman ber-crush sana sini. and yeah, i remember about something. when everyone in the gang pushed me away because mdm Ros asked them to in order to stay in the college and not being courted in JDM. lol. semua masa tuh ignored me. aku sedih. and nasib baik laa ade kejora ( sukan olahraga mrsm zon timur) masa tu. so takde laa fefeeling sangat. kat situ jugak ade konsert UNIC. but yeahh. ticket aku burn je laa sebab , planning nye nak gi sesama. but aku ada game so burn laa ticket. tapi aku usha je dr jauh. pastu kene prepare untuk game . kene rest malam tu and aku nak balik, suddenly someone hugged me from the back. it was aisyah. she cried. die cakap die mintak maaf sebab buat aku mcm tu. so yeah, everyone's crying. including me. so we back together again. kelakar kan. ada masa aku gaduh dengan senior. especially diana syahirah si nenek sihir tak guna. aku dendam lg dgn dia sampai sekarang.

best bila ingat princess nite, activity week, sport's day, teacher's day, dinner, preps, roll call, tunas scientist, nobel laurate camp, spm n pmr camp, language week,  kejora, homeroom, wardens, hostels, crushes, surau and all. missing all of them sooooooo much rn . macam2 aku buat dulu. tapi tu semua kenangan . im so nakal and pembuli.



gtg
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Miss A

assalamualaikum.

who says that it is easy to just forget everything. sometime, something we could let it go, but to forget it, sometime, we cant.

tadi haidah whatsapp . lol. rindu katanya. i miss you too babe. sorry sebab buat kau rasa macam tu. duhh. again?! i was crying. meynnn!! sorry k haidah jo kesayangan ku. kau jangan laa takut. aku tak marah kau pon laa. have no worries k baby. aku sayang kau, takkan lah aku marah kau. kau jangan laa risau. aku akan selalu ade masa untuk kau. jangan risau. aku menulis dalam blog ni sebab aku taktau nak cerita kat kau macam mana. lagipon kau dah baca. you knew almost everything pasal aku. so , love me or hate me? you choose. no matter what is your choice, i will always love you, to infinity. balik cepat. aku rindu kau tau. rindu sangat. lama tak peluk kau. jangan takut ngan aku tau. hahaha. aku tak makan orang pon. so jangan nak takut sangat. kau tak mengganggu aku pon. kau tak menyusahkan aku pon. if kau mengganggu aku, aku akan bagitahu. but since aku tak cakap, means aku tak anggap kau gangguan la. okay babe. havva safe flight tomorrow. jangan nakal-nakal. aku sayang kau forever tau. and aku nak kau tahu, deep down, i really really grateful for having you and all by myside. thanks for sticking with me no matter what.

*weeping* : '(


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Miss A

Alhamdulillah. Dah study untuk ecology and microbe. Esok vertebrate pulak. Inshaa Allah akan ade kekuatan untuk menghabiskan semua chapter. Yiihaaa..

And about someone, aku tak suka mengungkit. After all this time aku tlg kau ikhlas. Aku tak mintak pape pon sbg balasan. And , stop being annoying by asking me do this and that. i need time to rest. And now, this is my study week. I guess u too, and i need to focus on my examination. jangan terlampau bergantung harap dekat orang. Maaf laa kalau aku kasar, but then , aku memang tak pandai menolak. And you should know when to stop. And part bile kite terjumpa memane, kau lari and buat tak kenal? Kau ingat aku kesah. Not at all bitch. Maaf laa. Kekadang perangai kau bitchy sgt and jangan sampai kau pushed me to the limits. Aku manusia biasa. Sabar aku ade had. Kau carik aku time susah . Aku tak kesah sangat yg tu. Jangan ingat aku terhegeh-hegeh. Ada masa aku boleh sabar  and dont let me explode. Haiiihh. Serabut dengan perangai manusia macam kau.

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Miss A