Hello everyone!
I think I need a place to rant about everything and I guess I need to be active on the blog like I used to. I don't think people gonna follow my update here and I might as well don't have to explain anything here. I mean, the hows and whys. It has been almost two weeks since my mom left. I thought I would be vulnerable but I'm not. I learn to accept everything and it happened for a reason or many reasons.
The saddest part is my dad. He looks so sad, down, and not really accepting what's happening. I told him to move on like he asked us to. I know it is painful to lose the love of his life that they've been together for 30++ years. It is not easy to say, and harder to do. For as blue as we siblings are, I'm pretty sure it hits my dad harder.
And also my nices. As for Maryam, she's 1 and obviously doesn't really understand what had happened but Afiya, the sister, she is so sad that her grandma left the house so suddenly. She always asked me how I feel and who's gonna be my mom after this. I have no simple word to tell her how I feel. I knew she knew how I feel and she also doesn't know how to put her feelings together. Today, she told my sister to bring her to Kuantan because she probably could meet her grandma. how could my mom leave without having a single thought of her kids and granddaughters? And I did ask Amin, my youngest brother whether my mom call him or not. He said, mom hasn't called him and he doesn't wanna talk about it. So sad!!
So whatever happens after this, I hope I'll stay strong and stronger. That's all for now!
gtg,
See ya!
Miss A
