Profound sorrow.

  Hi everyone.

Just a quick update on that guy. The guy that I liked recently. We realized that as the day passed, we drifted apart. He didn't get excited over my text and call anymore. And I, never cared if he texted or called. Not like we used to always keep each other updated throughout the day. Maybe he thought that it was unnecessary when we decided to just be friends, and I just thought that I might be disturbing him with my presence. We just... appreciating each others' unavailability. I missed him, I missed us. I just have no heart to show my effort to him anymore. He broke me too many times. And each time he broke me, I always thought that I would be okay till a certain point, I moved on from this suffocating feeling. I'm sorry for not having consistency in loving you but I just put my priority in its rightful place. 

To you, thank you for this short and meaningful moment. Till we meet again at the right time.

Gtg, See ya!

Miss A.

That guy again.

 Hi everyone!!

Today I wanna tell everyone about that same guy, Fitri. It's funny how I came to like him, even more each day. I knew I'm not supposed to like him this much, but I cannot stop and hide my feelings. I do feel now that he too, cares so much and like me too. I don't want him to like me this much as I'm afraid I'm unable to commit to this. I am unpredictable and easily have a change of heart. So. making him like me more than he should is unforgivable. Everything he did for me is so sweet but I think I should put a boundary and limit to it. I don't wanna get hurt and hurt him. I'm thankful that I met him in this life but I'm not so sure whether I should commit to this relationship forever. Maybe liking him and him liking me was a mistake from the start. Or maybe we were just meant to be together? No Nah! I think we are just two different souls who met at some point in our life. Just a chapter in my fairy tale. If I were given a chance to love him, I would but I know I'm incapable of love. Maybe it's just me in this life. Maybe I wasn't meant to love and to be loved. Just what the future holds for both of us I wonder.

That's all.

GTG!!

See ya,

Miss A.

That Man.

Hello everyone.

I feel like wanna share about that one guy I met in Ramdhan this year. Muhammad Fitri. I met him after a month of breakup (me & Shahrul). At first, I think it won't last even for a day. But after a few hours of conversation, I feel comfortable around him. He started to send me texts and call me every night. There's something about him that makes me like him even more. I knew I'm not supposed to like someone this fast and I know, it might have been a feeling of loneliness. As time went by, I feel like it was true, I like him. Like him, NOT love him. Too early to say it's love. I'm the type of girl who is hard to like or even love someone. He's the second guy in my life despite all the exes and scandals that I have. But somehow, we were afraid. Afraid to commit and to love. He knew I like him but he was so afraid to let me. The same goes for me, even if he loves me, I don't think I'm ready to commit. So, I think, it's better for us to just follow the flow and not putting any hope in this whatever-ship. 

That's all for now, talk to you later.

GTG

Miss A

Toodles!