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Yes. Life u ni bnyak cubaan dugaan liku-liku . xde maknenyer nk smooth je. Sememangnya banyak yang kita kena hadapi . to myself, semoga tabahyee.
��goodluck tipah

not so many thoughts

sedih nye. haisshh..
dah nak habis satu sem. macam2 yang dah jadik.
hmm rindu kawan qber. sangat. even takde sorang pon yang contact aku. aku dah malas.
malas sebab aku je yang pikir pasal diorang.

and kat sini aku dapat yang sangat caring. tasha,haidah,nora,qis and syaf. they brighten up my days. ppl comes and goes.

gtg
see ya
Miss A

The end

The thing that i scared the most. Losing my ability to play handball. I got my both shoulders dislocated. And i just cant play handball anymore. Im so sad. Im sooooooo down. No one ever understand. No one ever care. At this moment, i just need someone to talk to. To someone to be with me. Not someone who asked me i will still playing handball or nah.  Im so sad until i just cant cry. I got nothing but handball. If i havent met this handball team in my primary school, i wont be the present me. I wont be this happy and strong. Im sure everyone got something that give us life. And as for me, its handball. And now, i have to stop playing. I have to quit  . what to do?!!?? I dont know what else to do. For 11 years i played handball and now, i just have to stop. Hmm. ��������. I do really need someone to talk.

Weeee⚽

Lame tak post. Busy sangat ni. Haishh. Tournament handball start esok. Hmmm. Nervous laa jugak. Last main mase matrik haritu. Hoping all is well.

Umar cakap main dengan hati
En.kamal cakap main dengan otak
Shahrul cakap main sampai injured
Besties cakap main sampai puas.

......

Gtg
See ya
Miss A

... ⚽

When he said i need to stop, i think for a while , a long while actually. Why now?! Why me?! Why when i've reached this point??!!

But then, instead of quitting, i'll keep moving on. I have a pair of lung. One might get hurt, i'll use the other one. ����

He

He's my first boy friend
He understand me the most
He listens when no one did
He always try to cheer me up

Sometimes..

He might got angry with no reason
He might nagging without knowing the truths
He might be annoying
He might poke my heart
He makes me feel like i have no one
He makes me feel like i'm the worst
He sometimes do not there when i needed him the most

But..

He is the reason why i cried out tears when answering the calls
He is the reason why i tried my best in everything
He is the reason why am having a moody day
He also be the reason why i live till today

Whatever he is,

He is the best
He is the coolest
He got a special place in my heart
He never break my heart
He never leave scars too..

He always..

Showed up with surprises
Came home with my favorite food
Bought me perfumes
Bought me clothes
Bought me shoes and handbags

He will forever be my superhero.. He will always be the first in my heart. Dad, even when i cried a lot for missing you, but you never broke my heart. Thanks for all these years

I wrote this while thinking of you

Created by me,miss din

Gtg
See ya
Miss A

handball has been a part of my life :'(

sakit hati? kecewa? frust? stress?


yeahh!! thats what i feel rn. so down and i just need support and motivation.


aku start main handball masa darjah 3. mase tuh aku kecik lagi. name pon sekolah rendah. mase tuh aku main sampai state. fuhh. sape je tak bangga weyh. aku still main sampai habis primary school. bagi aku handball la kebahagiaan aku. bile aku stress aku main handball. bile aku sedih aku main handball. game lain pon aku main tapi handball favorite aku sampai bile2.

the secondary school. aku masuk mrsm. aku sedih sebab mrsm takde team handball. gtame ganas sangat and tak ade sambutan katanya. aku pon fight dengan cikgu and aku buat team sendiri mase form two. first tournament kitorang kalah . masa tuh karnival handball. kitorang berlatih lagi . then main untuk daerah punya. dapat first runner up. not bad laa kan. pastu kitorang slalu join tournament. banyak jugak pingat yang dapat. worth it laa.

then matriculation. lagi lah takde handball kat kakom tuh.  hmm. tapi nasib baik lecturer buat open and kitorang dapat markah state. and aku johan time tu. terkejut jugak laa. tapi nasib tak menyebelahi aku untuk join piala pengarah. whatever it is, aku still happy..

and now dalAM UMT. sedihn sebab banyak konflik. aku join team ni at first sebab rase sayang aku kat handball. but te bile nak tournament ni, bebudak senior bajet bagus join. aku dh left group handball tapi umar pakse aku join balik. aku taknak. aku down bukan sebab senior. tapi sebab diri aku sendiri. aku takde confident. injuries aku. aku dah tak mampu . haritu aku baru main sikit, bahu aku dah tak boleh angkat . again??!! sedih sangat. then lutut and kaki aku. umar bagi semangat tapi aku tak mampu nk kuatkan diri aku. doktor cakap better aku quit handball. sebab nanti effect mase aku tua. aku sayang handball. tapi aku takot aku tak mampu nak perform..

hmmm..

i will try umar. untuk kau. untuk team. love ya handball team..


gtg
see ya
miss A

loving can hurt

"you're supposed to break up with someone you're not in love with. not because you're completely in love with them."

this seems to be so true. i just have no right thought bout this. i just had a feeling to let him go. i didn't want to be with him all my life because i knew, he deserves a better girl.

shahrul, im sorry. for everything again. i just have no right words to explain everything for you. i decided and made a selfish decision ever to just walk away from your life. deleting all about us including put your number in my reject list. im sorry bout it but i have to .

so let us just forget everything. so, be happy with your life without me for sure and i hope you can forgive me.


thanks for these four years.


*listening to photograph*

gtg
see ya
Miss A. :(

first weekend in umt

haiiilooo..

harini first outing dr umt . ceyhhh, macam tak pernah datang sini je. best laa jugak. bawak roommates nak gi beli barang. pastu aku join sekaki . habis laa dalam hundred ringgit malaysia. tak kesah laa sebab aku pon dah lame tak lepak. hmmm.

next nak pergi lagi sebab nak trade in tab ni. dah tak gune baik trade in. membazir je kalau tak gune. hahaha. k laa. enat ulak nak menaip. see ya later!!

gtg
bye.
nite peeps. :)

new life

it just a new beginning for my new story . uni life isnt so much different than maktab and matriculation. cuma schedule je yang tak pack sangat. life kat uni akan jadi best bile kita seronok belajar and enjoy buat ape yang kita suka. its not hard actually. we just have to be sure what we want. and we just go to achieve our dream and ambition. kita pon tak boleh nak 24/7 nak berharap dengan kawankawan. and kawan-kawan tak 24/7 ada dengan kita. we have to know how to move with our own two foot. so, whatever it takes, we have to stay focus and do our very best.

gtg
see ya
miss A

First day -UMT

Omaigaddd. Penat sangat harini. Tapi aku takde laa sampai nk buat muka ngn fasi or marah2 fasi. Sebab diorang lagi penat . seharian kena ke hulu ke hilir. Angkat bag atas bawah blok. Haiih. Mmg penat laa jadi fasi. Tapi dorang takde la marah2 mcm kat kmpk dulu. Dorang superb sporting aaa.

Haaa. Tadi dah jumpa safiy. Aku mula2 buat tak nampak, last2 die lambai aku depan orang ramai mase perjumpaan dengan fakulti masing2. Malu aku. Haisshh..pastu jumpa pulak kat tempat makan. Yelaa, kalau tak tegjr die cakaap aku sombong kan.

K laa. Aku dah tak larat nak type panjang2.last words, fasi kat sini mmg baik n sporting.

Akak Renee my fadi bg ldk is the best..
Cant wait for tomorrow.

Gtg
See ya
Miss A
*sorry,takde gambar. Tak nyempat selfie. Penat tahap gaban ._.

jangan bersedih ;)

dah lame kan . lame sangat. maybe we both dah boleh move on dengan perasaan kita. someone said, "bercinta 1000 tahun pon, kalau takde jodoh, tak jadi jugak". that seems to be true. maybe kita takde odoh. Allah dah tetapkan yang terbaik untuk kita. bukan ape yang kita nak.

"boLEH JADI KAMU MEMBENCI SESUATU SEDANGKAN IA AMAT BAIK BAGI KAMU DAN BOLEH JADI PULA KAMU MENYUKAI SESUATU PADAHAL IA AMAT BURUK BAGI KAMU aLLAH MENGETAHUI SEDANG KAMU TIDAK MENGETAHUI." AL BAQARAH AYAT 216.

THIS IS MY FAVORITE VERSE IN aL-qURAN. SANGAT MENDALAM MAKNE TUH KAN. HMMM. KITA MERANCANG aLLAH YANG MENENTUKAN.


REDHA DENGAN TAKDIR. ITU LEBIH BAIK GAIISS. TAK GUNA MERATAPI APA YANG DAH TERJADI SEDANG KITA TAK ADE APA-APA IKATAN YANG SAH.

GTG
SEE YA
MISS a :)

with the girls :)

haiipp..
im so happy today but sad is seems to be more than happy. hari ni maybe last hang out with the girls before semua masuk belajar. and for today, kami nak jumpe awien sebelum die fly ke india yowww.. aku akan merindui kalian. serius sedih sangat. gaiiiisss, thanks a lot. walaopon banyak sesat tapi aku tak tahu kenape, im sooooooo happy . hmmm. nanti si yana dah pegi johor (uthm), adda ke keyyel (UM), tirah ke kelate (UMK), jussss dah ke peraksss(UNIKL) and dah cakap td awien h ke india. aku pulak masih di terengganu.

i hope to see all of u again after this. wish u all best of luck. and nawaitu belajar kena betul ye gaiisss... lillahi Taala

gtg
see ya
miss a

Rindu itu ...kalian

Teringat kawan2 yang dah lame tak jumpe. Masing2 busy . biase laaa , students' life kan. I do really hope to see them before im officially called degree student this september.

Gaisss, i miss all of u. Eventho non of ya missing me, i will always remember all of you. Haissh.

Zaman kat qber laa paling best. Serious best. Biarpun aku dilabel budak nakal and pernah pergi kem budak nakal*toplisted*, tuh semua kenangan and pengalaman. At least i do have stories to be told when im old. Hahahah.

I just have nothing much to say, i just miss all of u.

Gtg
See ya
Miss A. ☺

#sis dah moved on

Finally. Aku dah boleh lupe die. I mean, not him  , but my feeling to him  . sometimes, i do need to let go and forget the feeling. It might be hard, but till when i do have to be sad bout this. I have to learn  to live. I have to forget everything bout us. It must be very easy for him. Its okay. I used to. I just need to be strong. Be who i used to be before i knew him. The old me like some of my friend told me to stay be like one. Hmmm. I need to go for my dream . my future. After i finished my degree in three years, i will further my study in master and on. I have to keep my self busy. I have too.

Pray for me. Pray for my success.

Gtg
See ya
Miss A

Tak sabar nk masuk u haiih

Good or bad news?!?

Haiiihhhh. Aku dapat satu u dengan my so called imam muda. Hahaha. Semua cakap boleh laa proceed yg kat matrik. Kome gile ke hape??! Die memang tak kenal aku even satu lecture *time matrik*. Tak kesah la. Aku slalu nampak die kat masjid. Everytime. Baik sangat die. Well, budak sekolah agama kan. Tapi aku segan. Memang kalau jumpa aku tak tegur. Biaq pi laa nak cakap ape pon. Nasib baik takdak budak kmpk, kalau tak masak aku kena menganjing . diorang bukan boleh kire. Tapi aku tak tau, too much feeling. Haisshhh. Nawaitu kena baiki. Aku pegi nak belajar. Bukan nak usha die.

Gtg
Miss A
See ya

*miss tak boleh berhenti snyum*

finally got it!!

alhamdulillah. syukur sangat. aku dapat ape yang aku mintak. conservation and management of biodiversity. memanglah tak se hebat medic and engineering. but thats my passion. aku minat semua tu. so i dont have what others said. im just very happy that my dream comes true. so i dont have to throw away my Campbell. tak sabarnye nak masuk u. btw, i got UMT. i repeat, UMT aka University Malaysia Terengganu. !! it was awesome. kiross, adda, najwa, qilah , ayu and muaz dapat UMT jgk. its time for qberians tu rule ,hhahahah, no lah. it just good to have someone we knew at a new place.

i just have no more words to say. im just happy. very happy. 

UMT, MU TUNGGU AKU MARI !!!

see ya new place with new ppl.

gtg
see ya
miss A

Divers to be.☺

It should be you

It should be you in every picture of mine. Not him or them. But then, it seems like fate is not on our side. Its okay. Maybe Allah spared my heart for a better person. Aamiin. Btw, thanks for all these years together . im happy. Even i'd deleted all our pictures ,but the memories of us will stay together.

im so sorry

 

thanks a lot thuraya sebab tak pernah jemu nak baiki persahabatan aku and najwa. sorry sebab all this while aku ego sangat. sumpah aku rindu.semua pasal kita aku ingat dengan jelas. bila mu forward ape yang najwa cakap, seriously,im crying. aku happy sebab patah tumbuh hilang berganti. aku harap friendship kita bertiga stay till jannah. 

miss happy!!

gtg

see ya

Miss A.  

memories stay #KMPk

lahaiii. rindu kawan2 kat matrik.
  
ingat tak kite bergambar kat padang golf?

ingat tak kite g iftar kat masjid setiap isnin and khamis?

ingat tak kite kena g dewan sebab lecture hall kena baiki n tanah runtuh?

ingat tak kita skip kelas sebab nak siapkan keje lain?

ingat tak kite picnic belakang blok?

ingat tak kita lepak kat cafe tak pon bistro lepas kelas?

ingat tak slalu masuk library sebab panas?

ingat tak kita skip lecture sebab nak siapkan proposal bridge?

ingat tak kite satu kelas main netball? *tapi kalah.hahahha*

ingat tak kita (exqber) jadi johan handball?? 

ingat tak bile ade uptown semua tak lekat kat bilik??

ingat tak bile elaun masuk atm confirm panjang kene beratur??

ingat tak dalam lecture hall, tempat kite laa paling bising? *m2t14*

ingat tak weekend je outing tgk movie tak pon lepak kat kolej je?

ingat tak kite lepak kat dataran sampai guard dtg halau sbb dh lewat malam??

ingat tak slalu selfie je tak kire kat mne?

ingat tak time tak de class memasing lepak kat anjung??

ingat tak curi2 makan time lam lab?

ingat tak time lab physics satu experiment tak jadi ? last2 semua tido tak pon main phone.

ingat tak semua tu gaiiss??
 
ingat tak kite buat farewell party class?? 

ingat tak hari last semua mata berkaca??

life kat matrik sekejap sangat. aku rindu korang. even kekadang gaduh2 jgk. tapi life is too short to have regret. good luck in everything u do. hope to see all of ya again.


ps: akuu rindu tp taknak cakap . hahahahaha..

gtg 
miss A

#siscuba

hai again. its been a while huhh?? im just out of words. i just dont know how to tell ,to write . it has been two months since we broke up. i dont think i can move on. people said it takes time , but it seems that it takes too much time. i think you just fine . you keep texting and calling me. why yo did that?? it annoyed me ya know! stop acting like we're not breaking up. let us just act like we.re strangers. that would be better.  

p/s: i'll try even it is hard to just forget everything bout us

gtg
see ya
miss A

#RayaSakan

ollaaa...
haiiih. lame jugak tak update my blog ni. bukan pe, busy beraya. with my lovely brossss... thanks weyh sebab sudi angkut aku beraya. lame dah kita tak keluar macam tu. almaklumlah, masing2 busy. syazwan dah pun balik UIA pagi tadi. Iqbal and Firdaus belom lagi. next year Iqbal dah pegi Jepun. :'( .gonna miss u bro. a lot. Syazwan and Firdaus please stay kat Malaysia. hahahaha.. Alhamdulillah kita berkawan sejak kecik. 2003 till this year dah 13 years and still counting. thanks sebab be the best bros of mine. 

gtg
miss ya'all
see ya.

p/s: bersyukur sebab ade kawan macam kome

first raya.

third raya

second raya

acah2 candid gituu

THROWBACK

Hello fellas.

 *weeping*

teringat zaman sekolah. teringat zaman kolej. too much memories. haritu mase pegi  Qber, bile jalan sorang2 kat blok akademik, tengok kelas lame, berair jugak mate. pegi hostel tengok bilik lame sayu jugak hati. walaupon aku di label budak nakal and pernak pegi kem budak2 nakal, kenangan tetap kenangan . tak pernah aku berdendam dengan ustaz or warden2 or even HEP sendiri. sebab silap tuh dari aku. kecuali satu hal yang aku tak boleh lupa sampai sekarang. sorang ustaz tuh. die ustaz yang aku sangat hormat. sangat baik. agak rapat dengan aku. tapi ade stau hal yang melibatkan anak homeroom die and which was totally her fault, aku yang kena pergi mintak maaf. aku cuba nak explain kat ustaz tuh, but he never listened. sakit tuh Allah je  yang tahu. lepas aku mitak maaf, pompuan tuh *senior aku* pegi cerita kat kawan2 die yang aku pon tunduk and takot dengan die. kurang ke maruah aku kalau aku yang mitak maaf? hina ke aku kalau aku rendahkan ego aku sebab hormat aku terhadap seorang ustaz? semua salah dilempar kat aku. sebab? aku pernah buat salah dulu. ustaz tuh pernah cakap, tak semestinya orang yang PERNAH buat silap akan buat silap yang sama IN FUTURE. tapi ustaz sendiri yang judge orang tu melalui masa lampau dia. usta , saya tak mitak ustaz mitak maaf dengan saya, tapi saya nak ustaz dengar explaination say*mase tu* and tengok sape betul or sape salah. bile dia yang so called "MANGSA" tuh berjawatan and bertudung labuh, ustaz terus percaya. ustaz tak tahu pon ape yang die buat . ustaz just dengar pihak die. disebabkan hal ni, rase hormat saya kat ustaz dah takde. biarla orang nak cakap ape, tapi saya lagi sakit sebab maruah saya dipandang murah. dihinanya saya sesuka hati. salah ke kalau ustaz dengar penjelasan saya waktu tu? sampai harini, terngiang ngiang lagi kata2 ustaz and pompuan tuh kat telinga saya. 

and next,untuk ustaz K, terima kasih sebab selalu berlaku adil. terima kasih sebab tak jadi macam ustaz lagi satu.  ustaz didik saya the way a teacher should be. terima kasih sebab ustaz slalu bagi saya peluang dan baiki silap saya. memang memalukan bile kenan denda , kena rotan depan orang ramai, tapi semua tu ajar saya mane betul mane salah. sedikitpun takde dendam kat ustaz. thanks ustaz.

hmmm. kedua2 nye ustaz, tapi, care nye lain. seorang berpewatakan penyayang, tapi hmmm. seorang lagi berpewatakan garang, tapi seorang yang mendengar dan adil


im off
gtg
see ya
Miss A

she WAS my friend

friends till forever. never let a single thing tear us apart.

 najwa, ingat tak?
that was what we used to vow before. we were best friends. but when the time changes and people changed. its not like i 100% forget everything 'bout you, tapi i just dont know why. something happened and left  the deep scar . i just cant tell you the truth. im not that cool to just tell you everything. 

thuraya selalu tanye aku macam mane dengan friendship kita. macam mana dengan kenangan kite. tak sayang ke semua tu ? i just dont have right word to say.  rindu memang rindu. tapi ego masih berbaki. like you said before,"ego kau mengalahkan menara klcc", aku jadi macam tuh sebab aku takut someday there's nothing left for you but hatred.  

thuraya cakap kau tanye pasal aku. aku speechless plus aku tak percaya. aku tahu tempat kau belajar lepas spm pon a month before kite habis belajar. macam mane nak contact kalau nombor baru tukar tak bagi. FB deactivated. care ape lagi aku nak contact. memang aku ego. memang aku takank mengalah . tapi bile aku mengalah and cuba nak baiki balik persahabatan kita, kau buat tak layan. aku whatsapp pon tak reply. pastu sedar2 tukar nombor. sakit jugak hati aku.

but then, bile aku dah fully gave up, kau buat aku rase bersalah. aku lebih rela kita masing2 tak bertanye khabar daripada saling membenci. aku taknak benci orang yang pernah jadi a part of my life, yang pernah jadi my best best best friend, yang pernah jadi my partner in crime. 

sedih bile teringat semua kenangan kita. since primary school. then secondary school . satu sekolah tapi tak same kelas. aku intan 1 and kau intan 2. tapi, kite tetap spent time same2 mase recess and mase balik. even sekejap je. tapi aku kena transfer masuk mrsm. you're going no where. mula2 kite okay lagi. aku slalu call. balik weekend slalu keluar. tapi lame2, ajak keluar tak boleh. text tak reply. sampai laa masuk kolej. and sampai dah habis setahun and sekarang cuti panjang tunggu in take degree. cuti berbulan dah, tapi macam duduk berbatu-batu jauhnya. padahal tak jauh pon. 

kenape tanye pasal aku lagi. buat ape? i dont fucking care. im heartless? yes ,i am. you turned me this way. it seemed like you reallly2 wanted to see the other side of me. im sorry but i have nothing to say. if you wait for me to text you, to take you out, im sorry, i just cant do it because i've tried before but you just giving me heartache. thanks for that. im happier. 

memang nampak aku selfish tapi aku dah tak tahu nak buat ape. this is the only way. wish you luck in everything you do. do well. even when im leaving, our memories will stay. because you're the best person i used to know. 

that's all
gtg 
see ya

Miss A.

 

facebook

makaiihhh.. falling in love with mr.F again. oh my God!! *fyi , mr.F is FACEBOOK. hahaha. * i dont care sometimes ppl said," alaa, kau kat FB lagi, old school laa weyh", ade jugak mawas yang cakap, "weyh, bile laa nk up kau ni" and dont you ppl realized that, before this, you guys jugak yang duk post memacam kat FB. kesian FB. dasar weyh. ape kau ingat aku takde instagram, twitter,dayre,line, viber,wechat,telegram,whatsapp and so on tuh? tapi FB ni aku gune nak carik kawan lame. all this apps aku gune sebab nak stay connected to my friends and bukan nak kejar popularity. cam hangpa semua. hmmm. Bercerita pasal FB ni, aku suke FB messenger because of that big blue fatty thumb. siap shaking lagi. hahaha. 

so kepada yang duk suka cakap orang ni lapuk, tak up-to-date ni, dah laa buat perangai tak matang tuh. tak de makne semua tuh. gunalah sebaiknya semua kemudahan sekarang. mulut tempayan boleh jugak ditutup nya, mulut manusia mane lah boleh. aku tak marah, cuma terkilan yang sesetengah orang, judge someone tu based on what apps the have in their smartphone, what phone they used. come on guys, stop showing off.


that's all.
gtg
see ya
Miss A

#SISCUBA #SISTERKILAN #SISKUAT #SISNASIHAT

Act more, talk less

Chat group kelas kat whatsapp dr awal puase sampai skrg duk bising nk pi buka puasa same2. Reunion katenye. Lol. Lol. Lol. Sampai harini duk bising lagi. Buatnye tidok. Apela korang nie. Naik geram aku. Ade la sorang ni ckp ramadhan tahun ni nk habis  ,tahun depan je la.

Aku menyampuk skali just cakap .
"Ramadhan tahun depan belum tentu ade untuk kita. Ramdhan tahun  ni pon blom tentu kite sampai ke akhirnya."
Semua sentap. Krik krik truiihh group tuh.hahahhaha.

K. Moral nye, jangan sembang je lebih guys.

Gtg
See ya
Miss A

little a-hole

you're seriously a grade one arsehole with severe attitudinal problem!! oh god!! i think you're well aware of me. i'll shake your hand when you've earned my respect biatch!

btw, fyi, i choose my friend and you dont make the cut. hate to see you around liking and commenting at my posts. stop doing that. we wont be like we used to. not now, not ever. tke note dear.

np// flashlight

thats all 
gtg
nite nite
see ya
Miss A.

memories of us

syazwan, dah lame kita tak contact. then, tadi kau hantar chat via wechat. kau tanye aku marah ke tak sebab dah lame tak contact. sya, aku bukan nak perli ke ape. just telling you the truth. aku tak marah. what for aku marah? lain ah kalau kemarahan aku boleh ubah our past, our memories. yes, i will get angry. but since kemarahan aku tak ubah apa2 , useless kalau aku marah. menyakitkan hati sendiri. just go on with your life. aku pon dah fully moved on. dah lupe semua pasal kita. even sometimes bile tengok gambar kite berdua mase high school, sedih jugak tapi tears never fall. sebab aku faham. you got your own life kan. so aku redha. plus, aku pon tak suka marah2. not in my blood maybe. even sometimes aku boleh jadi seorang yang sangat garang sampai aku pernah jadi calon senior paling garang *garang tang mne tah* . tapi tengok kes laa. hal kecik takkan nak mengamuk sakan. kekadang ade jugak timbul perasaan terguris tapi i managed to overcome it. i hope yo do too. jangan terlampau rasa bersalah. im just okay. aku pon bukan jenis mengongkong and memaksa.  best memory ever when i got to know you brotha. thanks dulu sebab care sangat. 

igat tak mase form two dulu ? hmm i called you lembu and you called me kambing. sampi cikgu liza tahu. hahaha. very childish kan kite dulu. ingat mase aku nk ambik rambutan tapi panjat punye panjat tak sampai jugak, then kau tolong petikkan. makan same2 kat belakang blok akademik. so sweet that time.. thanks sebab bagi banyak sangat high school sweet memories kat aku. thanks sebab still anggap aku kawan kau. thanks sebab tak lupa aku lagi even aku , to be honest, dah lupe or tak pikir dah pasal kau. sorry bout that. aku dah penat melukakan hati sendiri, its time for me to find my own happiness in my own way , the way i wanted it to be.

p/s dont ya worry, those memories will stay even when the ppl left.

gtg
see ya
Miss A. ^^,

Just let it ....

i just have no words to describe what i feel right now. its hard to say. i just need someone to be with me.

hmmm. kehilangan kau memang memeritkan tipu tu lah lumrah kehidupan. yang hidup akan mati. yang datang akan pergi. aku tak cukup kuat untuk semua ni. 

aku diberi dugaan dan ujian olehNYa, dan aku masih hidup. tu tandanya Allah takkan menurunkan ujian andai hambaNya tak mampu. just have faith and face it. 

he said," when love is in front of you, why you find it so difficult to say?"

huhhh. its hard to explain about it.  im so sorry. i didnt mean to give you any hope but that's me. i dont believe in myself and obviously i dont believe you. 

let us just be friend. its better. we dont have to think about love. we dont have to pretend to be others. 

najmi,

hmmmm. thanks sebab care so much even the smallest thing about me. kau memang best friend aku. kau laa abang. kau lah ayah. kau lah bae. kau lah my everything. im just afraid to might lose you oneday. and i just hope that one day wont come. ",

kau still pegang janji kau to be with me no matter what. thanks for that too. aku hargai sangat2. 

okay

gtg

see ya

Miss A. 

done editing my dear boggie.

finally. dah lame tak on bloggie via laptop biase gune phone je. malas nak bawak laptop n bukak laptop. on phone kan senang. hmmm.. i have  DAYRE. tp tak se-best bloggie ni. humm. okay. that's all.

gtg
see ya
miss A

p/s: bace entry lame, tetibe sedih mengingatkan kenangan.

whatever it is, memories will stay with us FOREVER

Me and maa heart

I wanted to be strong. But i cant. I wanted to pretend like nothing had happened,but i cant. Pls strengthened my heart ya Rabb. Pls . sometimes i do think i dont belonged here. I dont wanna be here . i didnt ask to be here. But somehow it is your fate. And i redha or in better word, pasrah. Im sorry ya Allah but it seems like i have no other choice. From You i came, to You i shall return.

Gtg.
Miss A.
Love ya

Surah Cinta.

Aku bukannya alim. Aku bukan jua bertudung labuh. Tapi hati aku masih tertarik untuk ke masjid. Saat kau ketawakan aku, saat tu aku sedar, kau anggap aku jahil tentang agama. Maafkan aku sahabat. Aku masih mengenal Ilahi. Dont be too judgemental . Aku terkilan sahabat yang rapat denganku beranggapan begitu. Terima lasih atas segalanya.

Hatiku tersentuh harini tatkala mendengar bacaan surah Yassin. Berkaca mataku menahan sebak. Dibaca oleh lelaki yang ku damba menjadi imamku kelak. Itu mustahil. Aku perempuan yang tidak sempurna. Sesempurna Khadijah dan Aisyah. Hmm

Ya Allah tetapkanlah imanku. Aminn.

Gtg
see ya
miss A

2Nd january 2015

Hye ppl.
This second day of this new year. Second day of litres of tears.
Aku taktahu kenape ngan aku lately. Aku sangat cepat tacing. Sangat cepat nak nangis.
Hormone imbalance maybe.
Aku bukan sengaja nak marah" or ape ke, tapi aku sangat cepat melenting. Maybe sikap baran aku yang dulu datang lagi. Aku pon cepat sentap even aku tau kome buat lawa.
Thousands sorry from me guys.
Najmi, i knew u try very hard to cheer me up,but then, i cant stop crying.
Gtg
Miss A
See ya