yeayyy!! done practical test on netball. just one more to go. lewlls..

hi good day. teringat dekat si shahrul. rasa bersalah tuh ada lagi kat dalam diri aku ni. im so sorry . hmmm. sampai termimpi-mimpi. and one more thing, cincin tu taktau pegi mana. saya patut biar ke carik balik?? saya confius laa. saya memang tak pandai cari barang. maaf. i might have let you go, but then, our memories stay. saya taktau lagi apa jadi dengan perasaan saya. saya kekadang terasa jugak nak tahu keadaan awak. maafkan saya. i have to do that. because im not the girl who deserves all your kindness and honesty. including the love. 

actually i don't believe in love since i was 13. 13 is a young age for be to feel the broken heart. but then yaa, it happened. maaf laa sebab dia seorang , awak pon kene tempias. and haritu saya jumpa dia kat Bareeka. tengah print. saya tak tahu nak buat apa , terus keluar dari kedai. saya tak mampu dah nak tengok dia lagi. sebab saya jumpa dia sebelum awak shahrul. it has been seven years saya lari dari dia, but then, sekarang jumpa. and hati saya still sakit. i still cry when telling story about him. why? because i still cannot move on. i am so sorry. as i always told you shahrul, you deserves better. who loved you whole-heartedly. and im not that person. so, pushing you away and letting you is the one and only way. even when i do not confirm whether i will met a nice guy like you again or nah. saya taknak tipu diri saya and awak. sampai bila kan nak macam tuh. saya dah decide saya terima je pilihan mak saya. saya dah penat nak carik.

and shahrul, awak nak tahu tak, i met someone here who looks like you. not exactly the same but yeah, a bit same. tapi perangai tak same laa kot. cause you're the one and only. haiiishh. susah kan macam ni. awak stuck dengan perempuan yang confius macam saya kan. maaflaa. 

it just good to know the one who you love stay happy and good. lol.

im not agree with that. why? because i'm not happy at all seeing him with his future wife right now.

okay.done


gtg
see ya
Miss A